Hello, America. I know. I still haven’t had the guts. No. The organization. No. The wherewithal. To launch my Congressional campaign.

Honestly, I’ve been watching Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez.

God dammit. Right when I thought my Nobody for Congress Platform was right for America, I started following her on Twitter, and damn, every day I like her a little more.

I haven’t cared about politics for 7 years, since…well, suffice it to say, I’ve suffered a bit of PTSD when it comes to politics. I was SO intense, SO involved, turned out I was in what many, including, for the most part, me, would call a cult. Hm. That stings. A blow to the ego. Shakes the confidence. Made me distrust myself. And shrink from all politicians. Especially the superhero types. And no, I wasn’t a member of the Moonies. It was better than that.

But listen. I like this gal AOC, as everyone calls her. I like her brain. It’s sharp, and edgy. I thought I was done with politics, but ya know, I feel like Abe Lincoln in 1854, roused from political retirement by the Kansas-Nebraska Act. I know AOC is not a political law. But she’s firing me up, against my will, making me think politicians can be intelligent, original, genuine, savvy, ironic. So wait. I want you, my supporters, to just hold onto your horses. Jedediah Smudge has a lot of ideas. But he’s gotta recalibrate. He’s wondering if his philosophy of Nobody for Congress, of interminable patience and lack of urgency, is what he stands for.

I still think we’re howling and hollering a lot at each other for no good reason. We put our faith in superheroes. We don’t think, we take a side. But more savants like AOC, on either side of the aisle, that could rip off my PTSD, make me wanna jump in the ring again. But I’m scared. I don’t want to take sides. I’m not so sure we can know the truth.

So yes, America, I’m confused. I gave my heart and soul to a political revolution for 10 years of my life, and it went up in helium inspired flames like the Hindenberg. I want to believe again. Believing is inspiring. But I don’t, because ideology is the end of thinking. And I think we really need to think. Not banter. Argue. Posture. Position. But talk. Communicate. Listen. And think.